Matthew Scott Bernard Law Montgomery is able to percentage his tale.

The actor—highest identified for his position as Matthew Bailey within the Sonny With a Chance spin-off So Random!—spread out about his popping out progress as a homosexual guy. Having grown up with “very, very conservative” folks, Matthew stated that he spent maximum of his more youthful years hiding his unique self, going as far as to attend conversion therapy all over his days off from paintings as a Disney Channel celebrity.

“No one knew,” he shared at the Sept. 19 episode of Christy Carlson Romano‘s podcast Vulnerable. “My castmates did not know at the time, so it was kind of a secret.”

Matthew went on to elucidate that Disney “had nothing to do” together with his determination to hunt conversion remedy, however instead he yes to it based on his folks’ “nightmare” response to him popping out following his 18th birthday.

 “You have to understand that in the environment that I grew up in, you’re taught that you deserve to be punished all the time,” he defined to Christy, who’s a Disney Channel alum herself. “At the time, the career stuff was going so well that I was like still in this broken prison brain of thinking, ‘I’m on red carpets. I’m on TV every week. This is too good, I should be punished on my days off.'”